I realized that with my current lifestyle, I am finding myself going just from one club to another. At my age ( no Im not saying, yes you can guess ) I want comfort rather than flash and glitz so instead of having to reserve for a place in a particular resto, I just go to one of the clubs in Makati of which I am a member of. Comfort food, familiar surrounding and best of all privacy.
So I promised myself a “no work day Sunday” today that started with a mass at 10:30 then a birthday luncheon for my mom in law and the whole afternoon of catching up with hub’s family.
After an afternoon of non stop chit chat, ( and probably thinking of the make up work waiting for me) I decided to go to the club spa for some r and r.
Ah! 300 sq meters of space all for me! jacuzzi , wet sauna, dry sauna, shower and lounge area,all mine for the next two hours. why did i not do this sooner? why dont i do this thrice weekly as i used to?!?!
As i slowly sink into the filled up jacuzzi all I could think of was, why? why? why do I not have one? I “lost my jacuzzi” when I married and moved out of my parent’s home. I started to feel all the warm fuzzy feelings as I close my eyes, taking a mental trip down memory lane; after a few minutes, I suddenly opened my eyes wide and realized, Sh-t! this is WHY i do not have one! — In all practicality, a 5 feet flat person would sink and drown in a jacuzzi for two simply because of the length of the tub! 😂
What happened to me is called Nostalgia. According to Alan Hirsch, nostalgia is an yearning for an idealized past. Nostalgia is not a yearning for a memory but it is the yearning for that particular emotional state.
Research say that we all go through healthy nostalgia at least three times a week and it helps us cope with anxieties and depression.
I guess my yearning to go back to that comfort level that I have been used to was epitomised in the luxurious private spa. But the reality is, as I quickly “woke up to” is that, it wasnt perfect.
In some ways it was one of the several things that is giving me acceptance of my current life and closure for my old. ( more on that on the next post! )
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